I'm sitting here trying to do homework, and I see a flash of light in the window. It's blue light, very "electrical" in appearance and feeling. Thunder follows. I'm alone in this house and there are only 2 lights on, the one in the office (where I am) and one in the kitchen. Needless to say, it's kind of creepy. Almost 9 o'clock.
Apparently we're to get rain for the next 4 days. That makes walking to school somewhat discouraging. Now I'll actually have to spend money on public transportation as well as on my car.
I'm trying to come to grips with my inability to commit to new changes in my life. Now that statement sounds life-altering. But really, it's not. I've set it upon myself to live up to the goals that I've set for myself. Now, these goals are not huge, heart-stopping, or impossible. These are small goals. For instance.
1. To get myself to bed by 10:oo pm
Rationale: I must get up around 5:00- 5:15 am in order to get myself to school on time. Therefore to do so and do so without yawning constantly, I must get some half decent sleep. It's currently 9:00pm. I really don't want to go to bed in 1/2 an hour.
2. To attempt at least 2 hours of homework per night and start assignments early so I'm not doing the late night rush the night before the assignment is due. Plus I want to do as little homework on the weekends as possible.
Rationale: I would like to incorporate a life into my school life and NOT feel guilty about it.
Now, these rationales sound great. Theoretically they should provide great motivation towards meeting these goals every week. Then why are these goals so friggin difficult to meet???
Life just is not as simple as answering this specific question.
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